Dear Darling, please excuse my writing ...Factory Reset is a MUST.

Dear Darling, please excuse my writing ...

[Chorus]
Dear Darlin’, please excuse my writing
I can’t stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you
And no one understands what we went through
It was short, it was sweet, we tried

[Pre-Chorus 1]
And if my words break through the wall
And meet you at your door
All I could say is: “Girl, I mean them all.”

[Chorus]
Dear Darlin’, please excuse my writing
I can’t stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you
And no one understands what we went through
It was short, it was sweet, we tried
We tried

[Woman]
I understand where he’s coming from

[Verse 1]
Been thinkin' about the bar we drank in
Feeling like the sofa was sinking
I was warm in the hope of your eyes

[Pre-Chorus 2]
So if my words break through the wall
To meet you at your door
All I could say is: “Girl, I mean them all.”

[Chorus]
Dear Darlin’, please excuse my writing
I can’t stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you
And no one understands what we went through
It was short, it was sweet, we tried

[Ad-Lib]
Oh I concur
These arms are yours to hold

[Half-Chorus]
And I miss you and nothing hurts like no you
And no one understands what we went through
It was short, it was sweet, we tried

We tried

Song lyrics taken from Genius.com

Dear darling now what we are facing currently.  I have no other choice but to have a hard reset over our never ending lovely connections between both of us as our karmic circumstances kind of love relationship are going nowhere, just like a broken record - Vinyl .. keep play on the damn same track and at times it jump back to the beginning of the track. DAMN IT 2 steps forward 3 steps backward ... FUCK IT man ..... LOL

Years ago I had a Samsung phone accidentally had an unwanted updates over the wifi that jam up my old darling 1G ram 8G rom.  I was really furious over the fcuking google android OS which has no respect to our old phone.  I have no other choice but had a hard reset (factory reset) carefully without going to wifi at all.  

I managed download the apps in my notebook, transfer over to my SD memory card externally and installed the damn apps from the memory card.  From that day onward I never go wifi on my mobile phone and that's way I can keep my old phone alive(my old darling) for more months before I get my new darling.  

I have tried to set the environment not suitable for the damn android OS install unnecessary updates and also I also ban all updates too.  I don't update any of my apps or OS too.  Unfortunately I did not restore all my contacts and only save those active contacts number.  Dear darling, your phone number was not on my active contact list as I did whatsapp you 4 times and you only did replied my first massage to you, the rest of my 3 messages was ghosted with no return.  So automatically your phone number will be on my not active list as no reply.  Please don't blame me for this.  You asked for it.  So since then we have no more have any communication and we only meet once a month (rough estimation) with some of my old spiritual foodie buddies.  

I did made a wrong move, remembered few months ago (almost 5-6 months) I was given a chance to go back with you.  At that time I went back and your mummy fetched me back with her friend.  I regretted it as I should go back with you instead.  That will given me a chance to talk you hear to heart.  Dear Darling,  I wanna to talk you and see any chance of reconciliation working together as a team starting from the beginning again.  Our relationship didn't really started at all.  I need to talk to you badly and I don't know where your true emotion lies.  We did not talk when we meet and that does not mean I don't love you.  I just want to avoiding any conflict to the damn environment we were in or upset your self appointed 3rd parties of mother-in-law whom hatred to see our happy love relationship. 

At the same time due to lack of proper communication, I don't know where we stand,  we need to talk about the past, I means talk truthfully about our past, and also talk truly about our emotion.  Once we do that, I can see we can great chances reciprocated to each other truthfully.  This also helps for us feel better instead left each other out in the cold again and again with no return.  If I feel that you are telling me the truth, and then the spirit saying  we can go for this 2 of cups.

I can feel and understand what you have been through and unfortunately I am not in the position to reach out.  Just like my old darling, after more than a year factory reseted, one of her mobile broadband related chip went kaput.  Each time I go online using mobile data, it heated up and drain my fully charge phone very fast and within 3 hours died prematurely.  I did brought her to mobile phone clinic and had a consultant diagnostic over her.  The so called consultant told me her motherboard had went kaput and time to have semi retired from internet.  So I have no other choice, but to take my new mistress as my second wife.  All the tasks previous done by my first old darling are transfer to my new mistress as she comes with great power and also came from the same root too ..samsung A30 model,  She  was born with having 4G ram and 64G rom.  I am quite happy with her and my old darling only serve me with seeing old photographs, playing musical videos and wake me up in the morning.  I did changed her battery and now she can last for 5 days before recharge needed.  I have cut her out from internet as she is had a serious stroke and it can called it due to old age and over work for almost 4 years as total.  Perhaps I have fucked her too much 24 hours a day without a day rest and most of the time set her on hot-spot.  I am still love her as she has served me very well over the years.

I have to tell you the real story of my old darling and my new darling mobile phone.  This is exactly what are happening to you currently.  I felt so sorry because I am not at your side to comfort you when you needed me the most.  The last two meetings we met, I can see your soul within your body and mind had RIP and gone to the devils.  I felt the left out in the cold does not only affect you but to your beloved mummy and her closed friend.  I'm sorry.  My silence has not bad intention to hurt any of you.  I just don't want to burn these trouble bridges over the peaceful water.

The fcuking on going drama behind my back really hurt all of you, sadden my lovely heart and I just keep the silence without speaking .. just like the song Sound of Silence from Art Garfunkel and Paul Simon.  Hello Darkness my old friend ...  I will copy and paste this beautiful song lyrics here as not sure if you knew this beautiful song which I love very much but have not have enough courage to record it yet.  

Dear Darling, when we meet with our old spiritual buddies, I can read the group energies and their faces especially those fucking evil drama gossips behind my back, you are also second most active speaker there too, due to your frustration failed to get what you want selfishly means.  Due to so much wrong doing on your side, I still love you as you are and always forgive you.  I am not sure if you can read mine, But I can read yours.  The more you show opposite of what you feel, the more I can read the real of you.  I knew you do have beautiful feeling over me but you set your damn circumstances this way.  I am not blaming you but you must aware it too.

You can't run away from the truth especially you have feeling toward me are real.  It is up to you if you wanna to talk to me truthfully or not.  You are holding the beautiful cards now.  I am ready to talk to you any time .. so spread your wings like the beautiful seagulls whom I love so much and come to me .. don't need to afraid or shame what we had been through.  I wanna your know "I still love you very much" and we are really very special to each other despite what we have been though.  This is a very long msg to you so that the beloved cows can understand how to come back to our beloved home together without using any damn electronic GPS gadgets.  By the way, for your information, cow's dung can make money too.  But I wont be prepare you any cow's urine for your breakfast.  If you still have those beautiful lovely feeling you have on me, please contact me asap as I can't contact you as I did not managed save your mobile number.  I will be going back to England very soon as make plans as you knew Sunderland is my homeland and might visit my aunt in Vancouver, Canada.

Dear Darling,  I want to shout out silently within my mind and body as follows

[Verse 1]

Hello darkness, my old friend

I've come to talk with you again

Because a vision softly creeping

Left its seeds while I was sleeping

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence

[Verse 2]

In restless dreams I walked alone

Narrow streets of cobblestone

'Neath the halo of a street lamp

I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed by

The flash of a neon light

That split the night

And touched the sound of silence

[Verse 3]

And in the naked light I saw

Ten thousand people, maybe more

People talking without speaking

People hearing without listening

People writing songs that voices never share

And no one dared

Disturb the sound of silence

[Verse 4]

"Fools", said I, "You do not know

Silence like a cancer grows

Hear my words that I might teach you

Take my arms that I might reach you"

But my words, like silent raindrops, fell

And echoed in the wells of silence

[Verse 5]

And the people bowed and prayed

To the neon god they made

And the sign flashed out its warning

In the words that it was forming

And the sign said:

"The words of the prophets are

Written on the subway walls

And tenement halls

And whispered in the sound of silence."

Let me end this msg with silently trapped within the void of course moon as the last time we met having a last meal together.  I was staring two of them sitting next to you, your beloved mummy and her friend .. sat opposite of me, remembered vividly I said ..NO COMMENTS 2X .. FYI the one sit next to you on your right side is our dictator hitler  which behave like shamefully dictator-narcissist-self-appointed-mother-in-law .. sadly you also supported her as your spiritual-guru and allow her to set us in the environment of "sound of silence" in our potential beautiful happy life-partner .. Bye for now ..sayonara means goodbye now ... till we meet again on other place or other time ... NO COMMENTS ..as my last words .. 

Yours
DearDarling.