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Today I am going to internal struggle, major changes in my life.  Clarity is bad especially deal with cancer sign.  Something is not complete, mixed of ego and spirit.  The worst I have to deal with Egoist Pride where the damn 3rd party situation. Communication completely dead and on November, might have some communication coming in.  I was thinking this song is suitable for the situation we are facing today.  Anyway turning down all the options down is not the solution. I don't gave a damn over it.  I had done my part and communication went dead, mainly you dont gave a damn msg me back.  Anyway I will move on if no communication by End of November.  Dont blame me for this as I have my life to further improve and if the things not right for me I need to walk away from deadly situation.  Happy Listening to my latest recorded song .. one day in your life .. One Day In Your Life [Verse 1] One day in your life You will ...

Mandy When I was 14 years old, I met one girl called herself Mandy.  She was a year older than me and belong from Horses family.  Mandy was not her real name and she was same tuition as mine.  My best friend and me met her and her friend inside the bus.  Later I came to know she was staying near my resident.  So this song came to me in memory of this person.  Somehow the song Mandy become one of my competition song for me. [Verse 1:] I remember all my life Raining down as cold as ice Shadows of a man A face through a window Crying in the night The night goes into Morning Just another day Happy people pass my way Looking in their eyes I see a memory I never realized How happy you made me [Chorus:] Oh, Mandy Well, you came And you gave without taking But I sent you away Oh, Mandy Well, you kissed me And stopped me from shaking And I need you today Oh, Mandy [Verse 2:] I'm standing on the edge of time I've walked awa...

Honesty Sadly today we have so much crooks around us.  Honesty is a lonely word.  The worst was when you with a group of dis-honesty and these evil parasites setting im-moral as standard today societies. Don't be a bitch .. please ..we are human being on this Planet Earth. One last time One last time I will pay attention to them One last time I will look at them One last time I will give them a chance Wait, another one last time Never again one last time But it coming back It never a one last time I am thinking move on, just to do this Just one more thing, then I am done. But the damn story stay on  The fucking story seems make me to stay, struck again in these shitholes. Feeling trapped again comes with the fucking evil games of hot and cold So this gold digger seems know my weaknesses  She knows what turn me on  She know what turn Me off And she using that for fun The worst she is my weaknesses Time to FUCK these off from my ...

Story of My Life Today this beautiful song strike unto my heart.  I sang this song almost 3 months ago and it was not my best version due to lack of practice.  I did not sing this song more than a year and some part of my vocal core was rusted and this amazing song required some special techniques.  Whatever it takes, I will sing again very soon in karaoke with my sister.  This song might be song for BGT 2019 and xfactor 2019 in UK. First this song came to me when I applied singing job in Universal Studio of Japan.  All of us required to sing this song and second song was  Smooth (Santana song) .  I failed to delivered this song due to some unknown factor related to stress and fear.  I sang badly and never forget it.  Somehow I still keep singing it and it went much better too. Today I am blogging this story of my life related to devil I am dealing with.  Here is the story of my life now ... Happy reading it ... LOL I...

Currently I should let this go and see how it goes from there.  I had my best and did my best too.  I recorded this song again last week and found some special way to sing this song much more talented expressed. Let it go [Verse 1]  The snow glows white on the mountain tonight  Not a footprint to be seen  A kingdom of isolation  And it looks like I'm the queen  The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside  Couldn't keep it in,  Heaven knows I've tried  [Pre-Chorus 1]  Don't let them in, don't let them see  Be the good girl you always have to be  Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know  Well, now they know!   [Chorus 1]  Let it go, let it go  Can't hold it back anymore  Let it go, let it go  Turn away and slam the door!  I don't care what they're going to say  Let the storm rage on  The cold never bothered me anyway   [...

The Long And Winding Road Today this song caught my attention which was sang by our most beloved late George Michael whom we missed so much.  So I decided to go to genius.com to check out the lyrics of this beautiful sad song.  Now I knew why this song's aura attracted to me at 4:15 pm The long and winding road already ended last Oct 6th 2018, somehow I still love to share this over this blog because I have experiences related many times and also in many of my past lives.  There are so many reasons we cant ended to the door.  Once your emotion had mature, you won't be in the pool of teats crying even when my both beloved late parents died.  They left me standing here too.  I am grateful to them and many others who left this world included my most beloved spiritual teacher Dr.  K. Sri Dhammananda who gone away on Aug 31st, 2006, one of them lead me pool of teats crying. Ever since he left us, my spiritual path improved so much till I have...

I will always love you [Verse 1] If I should stay I would only be in your way So I'll go but I know I'll think of you every step of the way [Chorus] And I will always love you I will always love you You My darling, you [Verse 2] Bittersweet memories That is all I'm taking with me So good-bye Please don't cry We both know I'm not what you, you need [Chorus] And I will always love you I will always love you You [Verse 3] I hope life treats you kind And I hope you have all you've dreamed of And I wish you joy and happiness But above all this I wish you love [Chorus] And I will always love you I will always love you I will always love you I will always love you I will always love you I, I will always love you [Outro] You Darling, I love you I'll always I'll always love you Genius.com Performance at Sunderland, England by James Nakason

Truly [Verse 1] Girl, tell me only this That I'll have your heart for always And you want me by your side Whispering the words I'll always love you And forever I will be your lover And I know if you really care I will always be there Now I need to tell you this There's no other love like your love And i,as long as I live I'll give you all the joy My heart and soul can give Let me hold you I need to have you near me And I feel with you in my arms This love will last forever Because I'm truly Truly in love with you girl I'm truly head over heels with your love I need you, and with your love I'm free And truly,you know you're alright with me Genius.com  Perfomance live at Sunderland, England. by James Nakason

Smile [Chorus] Smile, though your heart is aching Smile, even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky You'll get by If you smile With your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just [Verse 1] Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just [Chorus] Smile, though your heart is aching Smile, even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky You'll get by If you smile Through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just smile [Verse 2] That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just smile Genius.com

True [Intro] Huh huh huh hu-uh huh Huh huh huh hu-uh huh [Verse 1] So true funny how it seems Always in time, but never in line for dreams Head over heels when toe to toe This is the sound of my soul This is the sound I bought a ticket to the world But now I've come back again Why do I find it hard to write the next line Oh I want the truth to be said [Chorus] Huh huh huh hu-uh huh I know this much is true Huh huh huh hu-uh huh I know this much is true [Verse 2] With a thrill in my head and a pill on my tongue Dissolve the nerves that have just begun Listening to Marvin  (all night long) This is the sound of my soul This is the sound Always slipping from my hands Sand's a time of its own Take your  seaside arms  and  write the next line Oh I want the truth to be known [Chorus] Huh huh huh hu-uh huh I know this much is true Huh huh huh hu-uh huh I know this much is true [Bridge] I bought a ticket to the world But now I've come back again Why do I find it hard to...